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party poison :iconlilamaria:lilamaria 2 0 chalk 2 :iconlilamaria:lilamaria 2 1 chalk 1 :iconlilamaria:lilamaria 1 1 squalloscope :iconlilamaria:lilamaria 1 0 self portrait :iconlilamaria:lilamaria 1 5 the silence :iconlilamaria:lilamaria 1 0 three cheers for sweet revenge :iconlilamaria:lilamaria 1 2 one of my friends :iconlilamaria:lilamaria 1 0 mattg124 :iconlilamaria:lilamaria 14 13 don't worry :iconlilamaria:lilamaria 1 11 mustache 2 :iconlilamaria:lilamaria 0 0 mustache :iconlilamaria:lilamaria 0 0 new ID :iconlilamaria:lilamaria 0 0 hate :iconlilamaria:lilamaria 0 0 slender :iconlilamaria:lilamaria 2 3 the final product hand :iconlilamaria:lilamaria 0 0


The Darkness of Khazad-dum :iconalicexz:alicexz 7,149 195 Devotion :iconalicexz:alicexz 6,107 170 Catbug Plushie Tutorial part 2 :iconvoodoo-tiki:Voodoo-Tiki 325 14 Catbug Plushie Tutorial part 1 :iconvoodoo-tiki:Voodoo-Tiki 317 23 Catbug Plushie Pattern :iconvoodoo-tiki:Voodoo-Tiki 637 36 Pony Loaf pattern :iconvoodoo-tiki:Voodoo-Tiki 1,405 257 Worth a Hundred Soldiers :iconalicexz:alicexz 11,999 260
Come back
Let me know that you're okay...
  I'm worried
Where      did
you        go?
      I miss your voice
  Are you okay?
                   Are you hurt?
Did you hurt yourself again?
     I know you're hurt, I know it's true.
    Do you get the voices too?
Come back!
Come back to school.
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Dalek - Tattoo Style - With Lettering! :iconjenniinoue:JenniInoue 6 3 Fireheart :iconalicexz:alicexz 8,295 173
Time Machine
If I could ask for one thing right now
I’d wish for a time machine,
But not to go backwards.
Not to see the big bang and
Not to see the day when human life began.
I want a time machine so that
I can go forwards.
Not to see the last person die out, and
Not to see the universe collapse but
To see where I will be in the grand scheme of things.
To see that my parents didn’t waste their energy.
To see if the choices I’ve made are the right ones.
Just to see if I’m ok, and
That “it’ll all work out fine”, as I’m promised.
But being told isn’t enough.
I want to know
So that somewhere years before,
Back here in the present,
I can feel a little stronger.
I’m starting to doubt that even if
I did have a time machine
There’d be anything left of me to see.
Because right here and right now
The not knowing is killing me.
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I'm so broken
It's been a while
since you've seen the sunlight
I've kept you away far too long
but no more my dearest
Please forgive me
for locking you away
Fix me my dearest
I'm so ugly
I'm so broken
But you can fix me
With your cold sharp blade
Only you can make it better
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Pie - Destiel.
Pie - A Destiel fiction.
Castiel was in a panic. Dense black smoke billowed from the oven in the small kitchen he and the Winchesters basically shared. It smelled awful, and the smoke didn't slow. He quickly grabbed a cup from the cupboard and started throwing water at the device, hoping to extinguish the flickering orange flames from growing.
"Stop burning!" he hissed, trying hard to put out the fire. It was no use. He knew Dean or Sam would ome in and not be happy with him, he couldn't stand it when they were displeased with him. Suddenly, there was a loud hissing sound and a large white puff of something--not smoke, something else--shot from behind him, putting out the fire like a lightswitch.
as turned around slowly to see an angry looking Dean Winchester holding a fire extinguisher in his hands. "Cas what the hell?!" he demanded, narrowing his eyes at the angel.
Cas looked down shamefully and turned, picking up the blackened burned object from the oven. He straightened up and held
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New Tattoo Design :iconmornastar:MornaStar 19 24 American Staffordshire: Finished :iconredeyeddemon:RedEyedDemon 97 80 BVB cupcakes revisited :iconmindosiala123:mindosiala123 130 48


good news:
I'm going to a night vale live show
I have philosophy next year at school
The guy who sorta bullied me apolpgised to me 

bad news:
I'm very anxious to hear if I passed anglia(C1 exam)
I still haven't lost any weight 
I still hate myself
I am terrified to inform for a job at the bookstore

I have a friend we are alike in many points, we like the same music, only she listens to more bands than I do, we watch the same series, only she watches more diverse series, we think the same in a lot of ways, but of course not everything. I've always called her the better version of me, not to her face but in my head and when discussing her with other friends. Why do I do that? let me tell you, she is everything I am and more. She is smarter than I am, that is weird to say because we follow different classes, but in the ones we share she is better except math I dominate in that. She is pretty, this is something she doesn't know herself 'cause who in this world thinks he or she is gorgeous. She is about 1.72m, has long legs, well shaped breasts, and is part Russian, did I mention she is skinny but not too skinny, healthy skinny. And I am so envious of that, because I am the complete opposite. 

About the self hate and god part (intentionally not writing god with a capital G) I thought about it the other day. What if god makes people hate themselves for a reason. I was just lying in my bed doing nothing but think about the future, and how I will never have sex because of my body and the way people, and me, feel about it. 
so what if self hate is implanted in brains to keep people from doing things. that would be weird but I somehow can't stop to think that little things like that are part of a bigger picture. I know I'm strange.


Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
I speak 4 languages english, dutch, sarcasm and swearing
:P< OMG its licking its nose

REAL BVB fans- know what BVB stands for
REAL BVB fans- doesn't like the band just because of Andy
REAL BVB fans- know who the only original member of the band is
REAL BVB fans- know more songs than Knives and Pens
REAL BVB fans- think Chance and Andy never gets old
REAL BVB fans- know every band members name and what they do
REAL BVB fans- know that Ashley Purdy is a GUY
REAL BVB fans- has made "Never Give in" their Motto
REAL BVB fans- know who smokes in the band, and who doesn't
REAL BVB fans- have worn their makeup like Andy's on a normal day
REAL BVB fans- would vote for Lightning Thunderstein if he ran for president
REAL BVB fans- know that it is now Biersack not Six, 6, or Sixx
REAL BVB fans- have this on their profile

I really love BVB forever



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gpsc Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2016  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
see my comment below!
gpsc Featured By Owner Edited Sep 12, 2015  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Happy birthday!!
XxTabbixX Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2013  Student General Artist

gpsc Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Happy Birthday! sorry I don't know how to say that in Dutch :XD:
lilamaria Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
it's gefeliciteerd or fijne verjaardag but thanks anyway and just forget the dutch part it's lame
gpsc Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
lol ok
BlueBoxDrifter Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks for the watch!!! :heart: :heart:
isabella19 Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2013  Student General Artist
thanks for the fav
mydeviousmind Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist
Thanks for the faves!! :happybounce:
Breyerluv Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2013  Student Writer
Thanks for the fave! :)
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